Meditation on a creek bank

Oh, to be green as the moss is green
To be small as a pebble and round with many washings
To stand straight yet supple, with hollow stem growing in the wet
Or like the water, to mirror heaven
Yet never conceal all that is beneath.


This came from practicing contemplative prayer, silence, solitude. I am beginning to see how these things help the layers come off to reveal the child underneath. It really is a shrinking, a becoming small in the best way. It’s only in being small that I can crawl up into Abba’s lap. He is the smell of wild patience, a triumphant sunshine without shadows. I’m really, really relieved that there are no lies between us. This sense of home is something I am learning to walk toward but also know I carry with me. It is the beautiful paradox of the now and the not yet.


I’m a white woman.
You are a black man.
As you walk toward me in front of the convenience store,
I prepare myself.
I take in your height, the depth of brown skin & the width of cheekbone,
grey sweat pants & a ball cap over the durag.
You could be my age: late forties.
We are a match, made to rewrite the old stories.
The ones our great great grandparents were told.
I anticipate the moment our eyes will meet.
I rehearse what my blue ones will say:
I am not afraid of you; you are just like me.
I honor you for the cross you bear in this life, this country.
I don’t know how to lift that load, but I see it.
I do not pity you,
Instead I give you kindness because you are my brother.

But as our paths cross on the narrow concrete,
you duck your head and cast your eyes down
and shuffle just a little.
I keep walking.
I don’t know what to do.

This sidewalk is paved with good intentions.

Plumb line

There is a plumb line. And it doesn’t swing right or left. Steady and straight, it hangs in the middle, making right angles to the earth, to us. It aligns with gravity, the gravity of what is coming. 

What’s to be done with a house that isn’t square? A house that is divided within itself, aligned to the acute and the obtuse.  Is it to be torn down, to begin again?  What’s to say we’d get it right this time? Perhaps it’s best to wait, to watch and pray, to know this world, this house, is not our home. 

You once said something about many rooms in your father’s house and that you’d be preparing a place for us, a place to dwell as family. You are the master builder. Unless you build the house, we labor in vain. You are unapologetically right and incomprehensibly kind, regardless of our ability to be still long enough to perceive the truth of your string and bob. You justify that which is crooked if we will but agree. 

It’s Black & White

We are all the shades, 

the varied shades of flesh, 

Alternating in their giving and taking 

of screaming blame, shoulder-bending shame, 

of the cups of rage and suffering…

Are we looking to the end? 

Do we know the poison we are drinking?

Do we acknowledge the toxins we are excreting?

We destroy the very love we are seeking. 

Like an old married couple 

locked in a cycle of rejection and cold revenge, 

we’ve lost the art of seeing one another 

with the kind eyes of  lover and of friend.  

Blindly, we clutch denial and lean on our demands. 

When will we simply go gentle and reach out our hands? 


Do what you will with me. 

Plow or plant 

or let me lie fallow;

it is not for me to say. 

I am only to yield 

to your wise farmer hands. 

The husbandry of my heart  

is your concern and you

will bring 

a hale and hearty harvest 

if I will but let you have your way. 

Now you bend and 

tenderly scoop up a bit of the  

wounded and wild earth that I am.